With Winter Solstice upon us, it is a time to go within and make bonfires (figuratively and literally) to celebrate the returning of the Sun, burning the death of the past year and planting seeds for the beginning of the next year. I have taken to having themes for each year. Instead of a long list of resolutions that can easily be forgotten by March, I decide to have one focus to really put all of my energy, blood, sweat and tears into. It is when we have one focus that the

This New Moon was a very deep one for me in a very beautiful way. I spent it in a beautiful magical circus tent in the middle of Joshua Tree with a Shaman, my best friend Isaac and the deepest healing and journeying I have ever encountered yet this lifetime. The past 3 months have been sweetly silent for me. I have said no to most obligations and people around me in order to say yes to me, and I do not feel guilty one bit. The past 3 years have been a blur of activity mostly

I have been completely lagging on blogging, because I have been focused in a very real way on finishing the first draft of my book. I have also been juggling a busy client schedule, 2 coaching mastermind schedules, even more magical training and swimming 100 laps a day 5 times a week. I am officially in the hermit cave of self work, and it feels amazing. I am taking a trip up to my favorite beachside hideaway in August to celebrate the 18 year anniversary of the fire, and imm

I am up close to 4am trying to concentrate on finishing my book, but my mind is elsewhere, so I need to dump it somewhere…so here it goes. FUCK CANCER. A dear friend and the husband of my spiritual brother is laying in the ICU of City of Hope right now on life support. We have been told he will never wake up. I will never get to hear his laugh, see his smiling Irish eyes and talk to him about life again. In the last 10 years, I have seen WAY too many people be touched by Canc

I do have to say that I am quite happy to see January go, and with this new month starting, I am feeling a huge shift in energy, especially with writing. I’m sure part of it has to do with it being my birthday month, and whenever my Solar Return (The Sun moving back to the exact point it was the day I was born) comes around each year…I definitely feel that fiery power of action Sun brings. The holidays and January I usually feel quite hermit-like, and come Feb-March, I start

The holidays for the past few years have been showing me traces of my roots…it is quite amazing some of the things that have been unearthed from my mom’s garage and closets: A map of my grandfather’s boat ride from Czechoslovakia to New York. A Slovakian Bible from the 1800’s that was my great grandmothers. My grandparents’ birth certificates. Countless old pictures of ancestors I knew and those I never knew, but still carry within my bloodline. This past New Year’s Eve…I was

For decades I have had a ritual of listing out all the things that happened of importance for the year prior. This year…I feel a new energy within and around me, and have decided to look at this past year in 3 parts: What I have Lost in 2015 What I have Received in 2015 What I am walking Towards in 2016 As humans, we tend to focus on how the year was as a whole and tell the story of it over and over again, only looking at these things that transpired as single losses or gains

Ah…it is here again…the time of ex loves coming to mind…or actually showing up in your inbox or cell phone. Venus Is the Goddess of partnership…this goes for both Love and business. When a planet is in retrograde, the things in life that planet’s energy helps us with can seem like they are moving through drying cement, and past failures within love and money can come out of the depths of the past to make sure that we really deal with them, see if we really have learned from t

This past New Year’s Eve I got more specific and focused on my list that I threw into a bonfire than I ever have in my 39 years of life. My intention was to make my 40th year on this planet a gateway to the best times of my life yet. These past few months have been a game changer for me…in a very peaceful and strong way, instead of growth through drama and pain. Not sure what switched in me…but something definitely did, and I am doing things for myself that are good for me, l

In 2013 I… 1) Started and ended the year with a karmic love break up. 2) Finally had the breakthrough that I don’t have to write the huge novel, “From Goth To God” just yet…I only need to begin writing my memoir, “Baptism By Flame”…choosing to climb the foothills before tackling the mountain feels right. 3) Started leading and writing Full Moon/New Moon rituals for the public to share the beautiful knowledge of working with the energy of the moon to people who may not be in t