About this time on this day 26 years ago, I was towing my completely totaled tiny black Honda CRX which lost a fight with a double semi truck.
Thus beginning my weekend of Semi Truck accident, house fire, 3rd degree burns and dying and coming back to life in a burn ward.
I find myself currently in a place of release, burning old things down and rebuilding in life again, and I look forward to the next flight of The Phoenix I am.
I'm reading through my Fire journal I kept in the burn ward, and today I read the last entry and it reminded me of where the fire in me stems from.
10/2/98:
"In closing this journal, I honor it as the healing tool I needed it to be as I grabbed for it in times of anger, pain, fear and that one beautiful passage which was written of hope and love for myself after the energetic visitation from The Universe in my burn ward bed.
A passage that bright is a very rare find for a pen I hold to create as of late.
There are things I am going to change about my life, but all I can concentrate on now is healing my body before I worry about getting a car, a new career and finding a place to live again.
This whole ordeal taught me many things...but the most important is it planted a small seed of love for myself that I plan on watering the fuck out of in my life, now that I have finally found it at age 23.
Even though I am in intense pain, don't have a place to live, no car, no job and have no idea what the future holds...I'm elated...I am alive and breathing and I am learning to love me.
I'll show the world who I am and what she can do.
Watch out, world...Phoenix rising over here."
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